I don’t know.. but look at me please, I love you
-she said on the verge of tears
Dont! … dont..
-he cuts her off
Don’t what???! Huh what else can i say?!!
I love you and I do.. I always have and I’ll always I love you, it’s just I can’t, and if you don’t believe me I don’t know what else to do or say that could make you believe me-
Well because it’s not true!
-he again cuts her off
it’s just not true I well maybe it is but not the way I love you not the way I feel about you not the way I look you or think of you….
So I just can’t- I can’t accept it,
-he tells her as he turns away from her
WHy?!!! What more do you want, Sebastian?! I love you and I’m sorry you can’t accept it or I can’t convince you but that’s how I feel so what is it ?!!
-she yells at him as he paces infront of her
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Because I LOVE YOU JUST ISNT ENOUGH!!
-he yells as he turns around to look at her
-She stops herself from saying anything as she looks at him, his eyes on the verge of tears
It just isn’t and I could stand here and tell it to you over and over again but that doesn’t describe it
And I know you don’t feel the same
Because saying it shouldn’t be enough, those 3 words shouldn’t satisfy you, you should want to scream it sing it as loud as you possibly can until you strain your voice and you cant stop coughing… and and.. and you can’t speak anymore
-his voice cracks as he stutters
Until it hurts to breath as the thought of saying another word brings you pain yet you do it anyway because maybe saying it one last time will finally get through to the other person…
Until those words are engraved in your vocal cords making impossible to say anything else, then and only then would you possibly understand that it kills me to hear you say my name in the same breath as someone else’s.
So no, I’m sorry but I can’t accept it. And I can’t change and I want to god I do, and I’ve tried but it’s you
So please don’t tell me you love me because I will always believe you, even when everything in me is telling me that it’s a lie that all of this is no more than just an act. I’ll always believe it..
because even if there’s just a small chance that it becomes a reality, it beats the alternative.
As if I even need another reason to be delusional about this whole thing